Wednesday, October 31, 2012

what's keith READING?

MONEY. . . . . Ezekiel 7:19 Money too often seems to lead people into sin.  Paul said the love of money is the first step to sin (1 Timothy 6:10).  How ironic that we use wealth-a gift from God-to buy things that separate us from him.  How tragic it is that we spend so much time looking for ways to satisfy ourselves with money and so little time looking for God, the true source of satisfaction. 

Saturday, October 27, 2012

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TURN ABOUT. . . . . Lamentations 5:22 A high calling flouted by low living results in deep suffering.  Lamentations gives us a portrait of the bitter suffering the people of Jerusalem experienced when sin caught up with them and God turned his back on them.  Every material goal they had lived for disappeared.  Even though God turned away from them because of their sin, he did not abandon them-that was their great hope.  Despite their sinful past, God would restore them if they returned to him.  There is no hope except in the Lord.  Thus, our grief should turn us toward him, not away from him.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

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Don't Play. . . . . Jeremiah 42:5-10 Johanan and his associates spoke their own curse; Jeremiah merely elaborated on it.  It was a tragic mistake to ask for God's guidance with no intention of following it.  Be sure never to ask God for something if you know in your heart that you do not want it.  It is better not to pray than to pray deceptively.  God cannot be deceived. 

Monday, October 22, 2012


Result of a fight back in June
Richard “Rick” Hunt and I are officially over.   I know I’ve said this before but this time I REALLY mean it.  Richard has shown me his true colors and I’m no longer invested in this relationship anymore. 
This whole situation started on Saturday night.  Richard came in the house pretty late from work. . . I’ll say around 10:30PM.  He didn’t greet me or anything.  Apparently he was still mad about the fact that I wouldn’t allow him to wear a pair of my shoes on Friday night.  I know I should have let him wear them, but I’m pretty selfish.  I’ll admit it.  Trust me I’m working on it.  He asks for the remote and I’m like No hello or anything.  But I save face and I proceed to ask if he talked to his bosses about my employment.  He says that he did but they didn’t say anything.  He’s been asking his bosses for a little over two weeks now, but their lazy asses haven’t gotten around to calling me.  So I continue to question him and ask why and he throws me shade, and I tell him Fuck it and that they don’t have to worry about hiring me, among other things. 
At this time, I’m ranting, raving and fussing and I happen to say that I’ll just use him the way his friend Chris does.   This is when the shit hit the fan.  He put his hands around my neck, chokes me and pushes me to the floor.  I’ll kill you, he says and he calls his friend John in the room for back up.  (You see John and his girlfriend are now staying with us on top Richard’s nephew, Ricky.  It’s funny how Richard used to make fun of the renters across the hall that had five residents in a one bedroom apartment and now he’s the butt of the joke.)  John tells Richard that he won’t jump in, but Richard proceeds to put on a show for his audience.  He’s in my face yelling and cursing all while choking and shoving me.  I swear he turned straight into Judas Iscariot.  He would have never treated me like that if his fan base weren’t in the next room watching and laughing.
I couldn’t believe that he would treat me like that.  But I will say that I’m not surprised.  He’s put his hands on me and treated me like utter shit in front of his friends before.  At this point I know that I should just leave but I have no place to go.  I’m stuck.  And I do appreciate all that Richard does and I realize that at times I give him a hard time, however that does not give him a right to put his hands around my throat.  I recently told him that I no longer trust him and to be quite honest, my love for him is ceasing faster that gas in an Escalade on the highway. 
In the end, we talked it out.  The police came shortly after and Richard ushered them away.  I’m not hurt physically but I am deeply hurt emotionally.  And as for Sade, Ricky, and John—they are on my SHIT LIST.  Richard told them that I would no longer open the door for them, but get this.  He says that he’ll get them all a key by today.  He just gave me a key less than two weeks ago and I’ve been asking for one for all of five months.  Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?
P.S.  Teon called me last night and I’m still not answering.  

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Sunday, October 21, 2012

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Tuesday, October 16, 2012

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DANGER. . . . . Jeremiah 13:15 While it is good to respect our country and our church, our loyalties always carry a hidden danger--pride.  When is pride harmful?  When it causes (1) to look down on others; (2) to be selfish with our resources; (3) to force our solutions on others' problems; (4) to think God is blessing us because of our own merits; (5) to be content with our plans rather than seeking God's plans.

Monday, October 15, 2012

why is keith SO COLD?

1116 Homewood Ave
 I finally spoke to Charles "NY" Johnson on Friday, October 12.  We lost touch for a moment but he is doing very well.  He recently moved into a 3rd floor apartment on 1116 Homewood Avenue.  He's still with his fiance, Kim, and they threw a housewarming party on Saturday, October 13.  I lied and told Charles that I wouldn't be able to make it to the party because I would be out of town.  I know, I know I'm such a flake.  I'm so proud of him, although he seems to be more dependant now than ever.  I can't stand it when without any warning Charles passes his phone to Kim when he can't communicate effectively.  In his own words, Kim is his "bread and butter".  Yeah.  And I guess she spoon feeds it to him too.
Charles also gave me an update on a few of our lost acquaintances.  For starters, he says that he hasn't been arrested recently unlike Semaj "Chardonnay" Daniels.  Apparently, she's going from abandoned building to abandoned building, man to man, North Ave stroll to jail.  In my humble opinion, she needs to take her ass back home to North Carolina.  When will that t-girl ever learn?  Julius "Andrea" Baxter seems to be doing the same 'ol.  Drinking, getting high and sleeping with just about anybody.  As old as he is I really don't see any room for improvement.  As they say, he is late.  Jail is the only place that one stays clean. 

Collins "Rip" Johnson

Charles also told me that my stalker, Collins "Rip" Johnson,still hangs out around the Harry & Jeanette Weinberg Housing & Resource Center.  But who cares?
Also, I can't neglect to mention that I've been quite a flake to Teon as well.  He's sent a couple calls and text messages my way this past week and I just responded to him on Saturday.  I'm pretty sure he knows why I've been so cold to him lately, but even if he doesn't, I just don't care.  I need a break from that one.  I just don't see my heart taking a back track any time soon and I can't deny the emotions I still have for him.  You see Teon is still battling the same demons as he did a couple years ago.  I'll just continue to pray for him too.

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Sunday, October 14, 2012

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FORGETTING. . . . . Jeremiah 2:31-32 Forgetting can be dangerous, whether it is intentional or an oversights.  Israel forgot God by focusing it's affections on the allurements of the world.  The more we focus on the world's pleasures, the easier it becomes to forget God's care, love dependability, guidance, and most of all, God himself.  What pleases you most?  Have you been forgetting God lately? 

Saturday, October 13, 2012

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Thursday, October 11, 2012

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Tuesday, October 9, 2012

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Saturday, October 6, 2012


File:Battle Los Angeles Poster.jpg
I've said this before but I wished I had joined the Armed Forces.  I've always had dreams of joining the U.S. Air Force just like my dad.  Unfortunately, that dream is over, and the only way I know to get over my regret is to look at it as some kind of blessing.  I mean who's to say I would still be alive if I had joined?  But this post is not about me but about all of the brave men and women courageous enough to have joined the military.  Even though this movie is pure science fiction, I know that it is a true testament to the trials and challenges of all of our veterans and I don't think that you all get enough credit.  Much credit to all of our soldiers living and expired.  I thank you from the bottom of my heart. 

Friday, October 5, 2012

how does keith SET HIS MAKEUP?

"Hi.  Is there anything I can help you with?" the energetic young lady says to me batting her long eyelashes further emphasising her wide eyes and nightime smoky eyes.  "Yes, I'm looking for something that will help my makeup last throughout the day," I say.  "Like a primer," she says.  "No like a. . ."  "Setting spray," she interjects.  I agree and she walks me over to the far wall and introduces me to Urban Decay's All Nighter Long-Lasting Makeup Setting Spray.  She picks it up and tells me to give it a try.  "This is our number one setting spray," she says.  Where am I?  I'm in Sephora at Towson Town Center, as if you really have to ask. 
"I'll take it," I say and she proceeds to open the drawer to fetch me the product and I proceed to the check out counter.  I quite like the product and I notice that it's made by a company called Skindinavia as indicated on the bottle.  Wait a minute.  I've heard of that name before.  On YouTube, that's right.  So I pay Skindinavia's website a visit and discovered that they offer a setting spray that does an even better job at keeping my makeup in place-Skindinavia Bridal Makeup Finish.  This particular setting spray claims to maintain a picture perfect hold even on a bride's special day hence the name. 

 I can honestly say that I have no idea what I would do without this product.  The sweltering heat this summer has been unbearable and my makeup had no chance of staying in place without this.  I recently ordered my third bottle and have no signs of breathing another day without it.  The original formula is not bad either.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

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FASHION. . . . . Isaiah 3:16-26 The women of Judah had placed their emphasis on clothing and jewelry rather than on God.  They dressed to be noticed, to gain approval, and to be fashionable.  Instead of being concerned about the oppression around them (Isaiah 3: 14-15), they were self-serving and self-centered.  Those who misuse their possessions will end up with nothing.  Those verses are not an indictment against clothing and jewelry, but a judgement on those who use them lavishly while blind to the needs of others.  When God blesses you, don't flaunt your wealth.  Use what you have to help others. 

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

what's in keith's MAKEUP BAG?

Covergirl Intense Shadowblast Primer + Shadow

"intensify your eyelook!  Our innovative formula of rich eyeshadow with built in primer gives you intense crease-resistant color that last for hours.  intense shadowblast is rich color that stays!"
This product has got to be the worst eye primer/shadow I have ever used.  As you can see, it looks quite ashy on my skin tone and offers no color pay off.  When applied, I get just a wash of color and when I apply too much, it starts to crease and flake.  (Good luck blending it.)  Plus it has way too much shimmer for my taste and it's not even a good base for  powder eyeshadow.  Covergirl gets an EPIC FAIL on this one.

Monday, October 1, 2012

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MONEY. . . . . Ecclesiastes 10:19 Government leaders, businesses, families and even churches get trapped into thinking money is the answer to every problem.  But just as the effects of liquor are only temporary, the soothing effect of the last purchase soon wears off, and we have to buy more.  Scripture recognizes that money is necessary for survival, but it warns against the love of money (see Matthew 6:24; 1 Timothy 6:10; Hebrew 13:5).  Money can be dangerous; we use it to deceive ourselves, thinking that wealth is the easiest way to get everything we want.  The love of money is sinful because we trust it, rather than God, to solve our problems.  Those who pursue money's empty promises will discover one day that they have nothing because they are spiritually bankrupt. 


Sunday September 30, 2012 marked Richard “Rick” Hunt’s 38th birthday.  I got him a simple birthday card, a delicious chocolate fudge cake and ice cream while Rick treated me to a vodka cranberry at The Drinkery and chicken fingers with french fries at Mount Vernon Stable & Saloon.  Rick was so happy that I finally joined him at his favorite spot—the bar—that he couldn’t stop smiling.  I kind of feel bad that I wasn’t able to treat Rick a day out for his special day but my bank account is closely hitting E.  Hopefully, I’ll be working alongside Rick at Roland Park Place and I’m really looking forward to it.  Contrary to what I’ve been telling my mother and Teon, this will be my first job in over a year.  I can’t wait to get back in the work force and finally start saving for a car and college. 
While today went pretty well, I was hit with some pretty disturbing news.  It turns out that Teon is quite the “drunken whore”.  Last Friday, Rick says that he noticed Teon at The Drinkery in the company of a light-skinned guy.  Once the light-skinned guy left Teon drunk and in the dust, Teon preceded to walk around the bar and feel up on guys for a nightcap.  He even tried to feel up on Rick and Chris at which point Rick apparently cursed him out.  Unfortunately, Rick says that this is not the first time that this has happened and that’s why Rick was so rude to him when I invited him into our apartment.  Rick says that he notices him at the bar quite often getting drunk, hitting and feeling up on guys and to be honest, I feel some type of way about this whole ordeal. 
I know that Teon and I aren’t together, but when we finally met up a week ago, I resurfaced all of those feelings I had for him.  I am truly still in love with him and it was pretty apparent that I really want him in my life.  Unfortunately, I think I want more than Teon is willing to offer.  I mean I’m not stupid by any means.  I pretty much knew that Teon had someone(s) in his company.  You see anyone that knows him knows that Teon is afraid of being alone and will only leave one guy after he’s found another.  Teon isn’t even in denial about his dysfunction.  Even when we had our little sexcapade last Sunday he asked if I would join him in a three-some.  I didn’t even answer him.  And once again, I feel bad for giving him a piece of my cake in hopes that he’ll want me just as much as I want him. 
I’m thinking that I should just give Teon a break.  I love him too much and I’m the jealous type.  I am in an open relationship with Rick but not promiscuous by any means.  For some reason I was hoping Teon would somehow be monogamous with me.  And I’m stupid for even having that expectation.  Teon even frequents Druid Hill Park of all places for a quick fix.   I haven’t spoken to Teon in one day shy of a week and I don’t even know how to address him about this situation and who knows if I truly will.  Why is love so complicated?

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