I hate to say it but I'm through with love. I'm starting to believe that I'm supposed to be by myself. In fact, I tell myself everyday that it's my destiny to be married to myself. That way, I won't ever get my hopes up. Love has done nothing but blind me, distract me, lie to and deceive me. At the moment, I realize that I'm just sulking. I know that time heals all wounds, yet I don't see love anywhere in the near future.
I only want love if it comes with honesty. And to be truthful, I'm not much of an honest person. It's hard for me to reveal who I really am to someone. I know this because Kenny is the only person in the world I've been completely honest with. Kenny knows just about everything about me and I don't know if I can ever be so revealing with anyone else. I'm very much an introvert and it takes a lot for me. I've made a promise to myself that I will no longer tolerate the lies or deceit from anyone including myself. It's just not worth it to me anymore. And I'm okay with being by myself until I find a true love that's centered around honesty.
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